Like many other anniversaries…
I can’t believe it’s already been a year and at the same time, I can’t believe it’s only been a year.
One year ago on this very day I published my first ever post.
In the first post I included the following questions…
What will people think?
Will they like me?
Do I even want to let them in?
How far will I let them in?
Will I fail?
Truth is… I am not sure I know the answer to any of those questions and I don’t think I ever will.
However, the blog has taught me all sorts of things this past year.
I have learned more about website building and social media than I ever thought I would or cared to know.
Unfortunately, I still have a very long way to go.
I have learned what it feels like to put yourself out there, make yourself vulnerable, and even what it feels like to be ridiculed.
On the flip side… I have also learned how many people out there love and support me and my family. MaryGrace’s epilepsy diagnosis was hard but with the beautiful response from all of you, it was slightly less difficult. The overwhelming outpour of love, prayers, and concern warmed this mama’s broken heart.
From day one I vowed that this blog was never to glorify me, my family, my accomplishments, or anything else Christen. I determined this blog to be a safe place for women to land and know they are not alone, a place to seek refuge, a place to relate, a place to take a deep breath and ultimately a place to love on one another.
It has been a great year and this post would not be complete without some gratitude…
Shane, I am so grateful I get to pursue the passions of my burning heart. Thank you for supporting me in this venture. I know it takes time from our family without any financial return. I am grateful that you see a bigger picture and are my biggest fan.
My Kids, thank you for letting me put you on blast. I hope when you are older you will still think it’s fun to see your sweet face on Mom’s blog. Also, thank you for the endless supply of writing material, you are my muses and make it too easy sometimes. (It’s almost like cheating.)
Mom, Dad, Cate, Mer, and Heather, I feel like I have the dream team as a support group. The fact that you all read every single post literally brings me to tears. You have loved and supported me without ceasing. I especially love that some of you didn’t have a clue what a blog was when I started, half of you don’t have social media, and most of all… I really love how you love me. Thank you.
My Faithful Readers, thank you for bearing with me through the typos, learning curves, and technical difficulties. Thank you also for letting me share my heart. I know you cannot possibly agree with everything I say, but you are kind and for that I am grateful.
As a reflection of my first year WordPress sent me a stats report. It shows how many people have visited, commented, etc. But there was one thing in particular that stood out to me. It showed how people found the site.
Honestly, most people land here via Facebook.
That’s great. I’ll continue to use that venue.
But the thing that stood out the most was how people found the site via search engines…
One person found this site by typing “Why is motherhood so lonely?” into Google.
When I read it the first time it took breath away.
That is why I write.
That is why this is all worth my time.
For that mama and all the other lost, lonely, defeated mothers…
I get it.
I am here.
I see you.
I hear you.
So for now, I am going to keep on keeping on.
I still feel called to write, share, and reach out.
So that’s what I am going to do.
2015 was a good run, I can’t wait to see what is in store for 2016.
If you haven’t already done so… will you please subscribe to the email list? It is the best way for me to gauge how things are going.
(And I am an overachiever who is 6 subscriptions short of my 1 year goal. I have until midnight, right?)
Thanks again for a great first year… Here is to an awesome 2016!