A Letter To My Momma

This year I have been around more friends that have lost their moms than ever before.
I need to start by addressing those sweet ladies… I can’t imagine what it must feel like.
A feeling of aloneness? Nakedness?
Heartache.

The recalling of memories must be so beautiful and yet so very painful.
Then there’s the future… What will the holidays look like? Will my kids remember her?
More heartache.

I am so sorry if you don’t have your momma here on this planet.
Truly, my heart is burdened for you this morning.
I pray that you can find some joy in celebration of her on this day.

As I write this this morning… my mom just got home form her most recent visit. She was helping me through a tough time and she did so beautifully. She has always had a servant heart and for that I am deeply grateful.

With the eye opening/heart breaking reality of the fragility of life… I wanted to take this opportunity to thank her.

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For all the damage I did to your body (I now understand the feeling of being a human balloon)
Thank You

For all the hours you spent rocking me
Thank You

For all times you played tea party, dress up, baby dolls, and Barbies
Thank You

For a hot breakfast every day before school
Thank You

For helping in my classroom, being room mom, and going on every single field trip
Thank You

For not giving up and running away (I now know there are when days the struggle is real)
Thank You

For being so protective that you followed the school bus for a week just to make sure she was a safe driver (truth)
Thank You

For helping me embrace womanhood; figure out makeup, acne, and boys (teaching me to draw eyebrows)
Thank You

For the sleepless nights you spent tossing and turning over me
Thank You

For not killing me when I was an evil teenager
Thank You

For never missing a sporting event
Thank You

For making our home a great place to bring friends
Thank You

For being my biggest fan for everything then and now
Thank You

For sharing in my triumphs and tears
Thank You

For humbly supporting me through my teen pregnancy
Thank You

For helping me in so many ways while I was in college (I couldn’t have done it without you)
Thank You

For how you have shown me what a Godly woman/mother looks like
Thank You

For teaching me recipes that feed an army
Thank You

For the selfless way you serve when you come to visit (my house is always cleaner when you leave)
Thank You

For lending an ear when I need it most
Thank You

For knowing when to advise and when not to
Thank You

For seeing the best in me
Thank You

For teaching me how to love sacrificially (it’s not about me)
Thank You

For being a beautiful example of love, grace, and mercy
Thank You

For being my Momma
Thank You

Journeying through motherhood has truly given me a deeper appreciation for you and all that you have done, there are a million more things I should have/could have added to this list. Hopefully, you got the point.
There are not enough adequate words in any language that could express the deep gratitude I have for you.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom.

I love you.

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2 thoughts on “A Letter To My Momma

  1. Thank you, Christen for your wonderful letter to your Mom and all those who have lost there Mother’s. I lost my Mother 23 yrs ago, she too was the most wonderful Mother, who understood me better than I did. I Thank God for all the beautiful memories he gave me of her and our wonderful years together. I pray for all the wonderful Mother’s that they will follow God and be a Blessing to there children.

  2. What a beautiful letter to your Mama. I know she will cherish it forever. She is such a loving and caring lady and loved by so many.